Stranger

25 Jun 2016
20 Ramadan 1437H

Dear Diary,

I wish you was here, I really miss you. I miss your smile and I miss being with you even it was for short time. I miss waking you up during Ramadan and I miss you Mr Lol.

This Ramadan we were totally strangers, I thought we share the same feeling, I thought that you love me, I thought that you wouldn't leave me again. But I was wrong you leave me without any words from you.  I'm confuse. I really don't understand. How is that we suddenly become strangers to one another. Did I did something wrong to you? Please tell me..I begging you..

What make me more sad was I had delete all of our conversations, everything because I really mad, hurt. But somehow I can't delete all the memories when we were together. They still fresh inside my head even how hard I'm try to forget you. It's hurt me so bad because I kept on remember you especially this time round, during this Ramadan, I totally felt you was here but everything gone, you gone.

It's funny, even I had delete all our conversation, but I still kept your photo inside my phone. I still have your letter that I wrote for you (those letter that I want to give you) to read how I actually felt for you. (I kept in safe inside my diary).

I hope you doing just fine without me. I hope your research when well like exactly you want it to be. I always pray for you. I pray all the best for you, for whatever you be doing now. I miss you. I pray to Allah to keep you in His side, to always keep you safe from anything.

I felt you, I never felt someone that very close to my heart before.
Being with you is so comfortable why because of you, every time I had problems, the moment I sat myself inside your car every single things, worries and problems I had just gone like that.
I still remember you ask me, "Why is that you not worry and afraid to be with me?" and I just look at you and said that I don't know why, but I just felt very safe and comfortable with you.

I love u because for Allah.
I believe everything happen a reason.
A reason why we met and why you left.

Dear Mr Lol,

Thank you for opening my little heart to feel what love is all about, 
Thank you for help me to open my eyes to see other part of the world.
Thank you for making me understand and know that true love is actually real.
Thank you for everything. 

Don't worry be Happy..
I may not forget but I always forgive you. 
I always here when need me.
p/s You know where to find me..

I wish you was mine but NOW WE ARE STRANGER..xoxo tc..

Life Is Beautiful Words :))

Dear Diary,

13 March 2016

Be patient for every hardship from Allah. 
Bersabar atas setiap ujian dari Allah.


Be thankful because you are the chosen one to go through it. 
Bersyukur kerana kamu terpilih mengharunginya.


Don't whine because every hardship there is always way out of it.
Jangan mengeluh kerana setiap kesulitan pasti ada jalan keluar.


Think well of Allah because Only He is our place to complain, place to hope.
Bersangka baik kepada Allah, sesungguhnya hanya kepada Allah tempat untuk mengadu, tempat untuk berharap.


Don't be sad because Allah always with you. 
Jangan bersedih kerana Allah bersama kamu.

Smile oh when you face the hardship from Him because every tests and challenges is Allah loves for us.
Tersenyumlah menghadapi ujian daripadaNya, kerana ujian ialah cinta dan sayang Allah terhadap hambaNya.


p/s I miss my family.. :(

One More Happy Ending

Dear Diary,

29 January 2016

Life is funny sometime, its moving so fast, we almost at the end month of January. I am 26 years old this year! Daebak! So far everything okay eventually, there is nothing much that I can talk about. Nothing really interesting happen pon..Ouh, by the way I got my BRIM anyway..Alhamdulilah syukur. 

And I met someone very similar to me, she is my new roommate. We both are Capricorn girls. Funny because I keep on meeting people that born on January a lot but somehow I am very glad and happy, I believe Allah had something amazing plan for me this year. InsyaAllah aamiin..

People say,

"Beautiful, yet Amazing things happen only to those who are patient and strong enough, so keep on believe it. "

You know what, when you have the time to sit and think, I would you try this out..

First, Try to sit as comfortable as you could..our Teacher would always said this, SIT UP STRAIGHT! hahaha..

Next, Close both your eyes and start breathe calmly, clear your mind..

Don't think so much! Just stay calm and relax, okay?

Then, Start thinks about something that would make you happy, about your life, your family, your friends, your loved ones or maybe your dreams or you could just think about things that happen today in your life that make your day, make you smile or anything will be fine as long as it is a happy memories..

There is no time limit, your can do it for how long you would like to..because when you start open your eyes, you feel this amazing and wonderful feeling inside your heart when it's done.

You can try it out as many time you love..

But if it does not works out, I am truly sorry.

Maybe this way was not meant for you..because it works great for me.  

So when you start think how your life so far, you somehow will be very thankful because your life has been blessed so much with your family, friends and your loved ones around you. 

So Be Thankful. 

Life is a Blessed.
You are not Alone,
Because Allah will Always with you..

"Our greatest blessing in life … is life itself.”

“There are so many things to be grateful for every single day.”

“We just have one life, keep it simple”

"Ya Allah, bless me, my family, my friends, everyone who read this for one more happy ending, that is to be inside Jannatul Firdaus..aamiin"

A Fresh Start Ahead

Dear Diary,

2 Jan 2016

Alhamdulillah, Allah loves me, Allah loves you too. I'm very thankful and bless to stay alive and Allah had giving us the chance to live another year with our loved ones, my life my family. Syukur Alhamdulilah.

Actually, I don't have so much plan for this year because I still have my last last years plans that I have not achieve. All I really want this year is to score my CGPA 3 above and gain a scholarship so that I could paid my tuition fees because I don't want to susahkan my parent anymore. They going through a lot all these years because of me. I just want to finish my Degree and continue with my Master and Phd, InsyaAllah if Allah let me and if I still alive, I guess. Marriage? So far I have never thinks of that before but if the time have come, Alhamdulilah. I put all my believe and trust in Allah because Allah knows what best for us all.

"When you have Allah, you have everything you need."

So, back to our title today, "A Fresh Start Ahead". Alhamdulilah today, I met with new friend 2 from exchange students from Sri Lanka, a master student from Penang and an accountant student who doing part time at Aeon from Segamat, Johor. Cool, right? Hahaha..Life is so unpredictable but fun, I guess. :D

I when to Aeon today by bus stutter that my University provide to us and I manage to had lunch, shopping, and buy books..yes books..I love them..because of them I would loves so much to start active writing my blog again aka my diary. Funny right? I let people to read mine. Why? Because I have my own reason, But all I can say that I getting old and my memory is not as good as before..haha.. Opss I almost forget, thank you so much to the person that gave their card so I can get discount for these books. Thanks.  :) 

I have 2 weeks to read them before my new semester start. Can't wait. I miss my friends so much and I can't wait to start studying again. I really hope this year going to be great. I hope I could make more new friends and making new memories. I hope Allah give me strength and patient to overcome any challenges. Ya Allah, please make my heart strong, help me to lead closer to you, because I want to be a better person than yesterday.

“Always try and be a better person than you were yesterday, cause we aren't guaranteed tomorrow.”

Bismillahirahmanirahim,

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim

Please forgive our family, friends, and all the Muslims of the Ummah.

Please let us all be safe and healthy this year,

Please make our dream come true. 

Please show us the right path which takes us closer to you for every breath we breathe. 

Please make us strong and patient to overcome all your challenges.

Please take us all to Jannah Firdausi without any count.

Aamiin.

"All those challenges shows that Allah loves you.
  Be positive and smile always."

I love you.

p/s Come on Man United!!  More goal please..Anyway 5 days more to go.. :D

Happy New Year 2016

Dear Diary,

31 Disember 2015 my last post for 2015.

Today was my last day working as RA, Alhamdulillah syukur to Allah for giving me this wonderful experience and opportunity to be part of the research team, I learned a lot and met with new friends that most of them are doing their Master and Phd. (Again Alhamdulillah most of them think that I'm one of the postgraduate student..InsyaAllah one day I will be one of them...aamiin.) During these 3 months, I did went for training, conference, exhibition and even being one of the invigilator during the test. Beside that, I also helped and tutor the students that need help for their project and exam. Alhamdulillah, I'm so glad that I could help them even not so much.

For my research job, I was doing testing product for one of our senior fyp project by questionnaire. Again Alhamdulillah I manage to get 101 responded. I also did research for others lecturers on their project, did some documentation too which include all the UML diagram that I had learned during my sem 2. Seriously, even though its tiring and hard for this 3 months but somehow everything and everyday seem so enjoyable and fun. I felt really blessed and thankful for this amazing experience and people. Thank you so much to my supervisor, lecturer, Madam Aliza for your motherly support and assist. I'm very thankful, blessed to be one of your student and also your research assistant.  

As the for conclusion, everything that happen from the very beginning of the Jan 2015 to the very last day of Dec 2015 was beautiful, amazing, yet crazy memories. I had most all kind of feeling like happy, sad, tired, mad, annoying, funny and so much more..

At last sad but not so so, Just like a few years back, its looks like I will be going to celebrate this new year 2016 by myself again inside this tiny small room. And me still single and bla bla...but in few days my age is getting old and not so much nothing change I guess. Anyway, I'm sorry for things that happens in 2015 and thank you so much for everything. I maybe not perfect and I always myself.

Syukur Alhamdulillah Thank You Ya Allah.. :)

Day 2 or What?

Dear Diary,

Do you miss me? I do. I do. I do. I do miss you a lot.
It's being months, I have not write anything to you.
I'm in holiday break anyway. Yeay!!
But I somehow I am working right now. Huh?
Funny right? Yup, but that what actually happen. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

It's Day 2 today: Bahagiakan untuk Bahagia.
I don't know why this words came to me but, that's what I really felt for today.
Thank you for leaving me, Thank you for make me write again.
Why did I said that? It is because of you, I start to write again from the day I like you.

I write you a letter and its with me now, and its being years since the last one I wrote.

All I can say is that, this is wrong, this is all wrong.
I am sorry its my fault, so help me to unlove you.

Dear You,
How do I unwrite the past,
How do I undo the mistakes,
How do I unlove you.

I wish I never met you,
I wish I never like you,
I wish I never love you.

It's does hurt but I'm fine because Allah is here with me.
I very thankful today because I'm still alive.
I really like my job now, no no I love my job now.
and I am really happy.
I hope Allah make me live longer so that I can make both my babah and mama happy.
Because their happiness is my life. I hope that one day I could take them and all my family to hajj or umrah. It's my biggest dream, I hope my dream will come true before I close both my eyes from this world and happily meeting with My One and Only Creator.

P.S The pain inside me its more hurt then the pain of losing you.

50 Nasihat Luqman Al Hakim Kepada Anaknya

Luqman Al-Hakim mengajar anaknya ilmu yang datang dari sisi Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Beliau pernah berpesan dan memberikan lebih daripada 50 nasihat kepada anaknya. Di antaranya:

1.  “Wahai anak kesayanganku! Allah SWT memerhatikan dirimu dalam kepekatan malam, semasa engkau bersolat atau tidur lena di belakang tabir di dalam istana. Dirikan solat dan jangan engkau berasa ragu untuk meninggalkan perkara makruh dan melempar jauh segala kejahatan dan kekejian.”

2.  “Wahai anakku! Selalulah berharap kepada Allah SWT tentang sesuatu yang menyebabkan untuk tidak menderhakai Allah SWT. Takutlah kepada  Allah SWT dengan sebenar-benar takut (takwa), tentulah engkau akan terlepas dari sifat berputus asa dari rahmat Allah SWT.”

3. “Wahai anak! janganlah engkau mempersekutukan Allah SWT (dengan sesuatu yang lain), sesungguhnya perbuatan syirik itu adalah satu kezaliman yang besar.”

4. “Wahai anakku, Bersyukurlah kepada Tuhanmu kerana kurniaan-Nya. Orang yang mulia tidak mengingkari Penciptanya kecuali orang yang kufur.”

5. “Wahai anakku! Bukanlah satu kebaikan namanya bilamana engkau selalu mencari ilmutetapi engkau tidak pernah mengamalkannya. Hal itu tidak ubah seperti orang yang mencari kayu api, maka setelah banyak ia tidak mampu memikulnya, padahal ia masih mahu menambahkannya.”

 6.  “Wahai anakku! Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya dunia ini bagaikan lautan yang dalam, banyak manusia yang karam ke dalamnya. Jika engkau ingin selamat, agar jangan karam, layarilah lautan itu dengan sampan yang bernama TAKWA, isinya ialah IMAN dan Layarnya adalahTAWAKKAL kepada Allah SWT.”

7. “Wahai anakku! Orang-orang yang sentiasa menyediakan dirinya untuk menerima nasihat, maka dirinya akan mendapat penjagaan dari Allah SWT. Orang yang insaf dan sedar setelah menerima nasihat orang lain, maka dia akan sentiasa menerima kemulian dari Allah SWT juga.”

8.  “Wahai anakku! Jadikanlah dirimu dalam segala tingkahlaku sebagai orang yang tidak ingin menerima pujian atau mengharap sanjungan orang lain kerana itu adalah sifat riya’ yang akan mendatangkan cela pada dirimu.”

9.   “Wahai anakku! Jangan engkau berjalan sombong serta takbur, Allah SWT tidak meredai orang yang sombong dan takbur.”

10. “Wahai anakku! Selalulah baik tutur kata dan halus budi bahasamu serta manis wajahmu, dengan demikian engkau akan disukai orang melebihi sukanya seseorang terhadap orang lain yang pernah memberikan barang yang berharga.”

11.  “Wahai anakku! Bilamana engkau mahu mencari kawan sejati, maka ujilah dia terlebih dahulu dengan berpura-pura membuat dia marah. Bilamana dalam kemarahan itu dia masih berusaha menginsafkan kamu, maka bolehlah engkau mengambil dia sebagai kawan. Bila tidak demikian, maka berhati-hatilah.”

12.  “Wahai anakku! Apabila engkau berteman, tempatkanlah dirimu padanya sebagai orang yang tidak mengharapkan sesuatu daripadanya. Namun biarkanlah dia yang mengharapkan sesuatu darimu.”

13.  “Wahai anakku! Sesesiapa yang penyayang tentu akan disayangi, sesiapa yang pendiam akan selamat daripada berkata yang mengandungi racun dan sesiapa yang tidak dapat menahan lidahnya dari berkata kotor tentu akan menyesal.”

14.  “Wahai anakku! Bergaul rapatlah dengan orang yang alim lagi berilmu. Perhatikanlah kata nasihatnya kerana sesungguhnya sejuklah hati ini mendengarkan nasihatnya, hiduplah hati ini dengan cahaya hikmah dari mutiara kata-katanya bagaikan tanah yang subur lalu disirami air hujan.”

15.  “Wahai anakku! Janganlah engkau mudah ketawa kalau bukan kerana sesuatu yang menggelikan hati, janganlah engkau berjalan tanpa tujuan yang pasti, janganlah engkau bertanya sesuatu yang tidak ada guna bagimu, dan janganlah mensia-siakan hartamu.”

16.  “Wahai anakku! Sekiranya kamu di dalam solat, jagalah hatimu, sekiranya kamu makan, jagalah kerongkongmu, sekiranya kamu berada di rumah orang lain, jagalah kedua matamudan sekiranya kamu berada di kalangan manusia, jagalah lidahmu.”

17.  “Wahai anakku! Usahakanlah agar mulutmu jangan mengeluarkan kata-kata yang busuk dan kotor serta kasar, kerana engkau akan lebih selamat bila berdiam diri. Kalau berbicara, berusahalah agar bicaramu mendatangkan manfaat bagi orang lain.”

18.  “Wahai anakku! Berdiam diri itu adalah hikmah (perbuatan yang bijak) sedangkan amat sedikit orang yang melakukannya.”

19.  “Wahai anakku! Janganlah engkau menghantarkan orang yang tidak cerdik sebagai utusan. Maka bila tidak ada orang yang cerdik, sebaiknya dirimulah saja yang layak menjadi utusan.”

20. “Wahai anakku! Janganlah engkau bertemankan dengan orang yang bersifat talam dua muka, kelak akan membinasakan dirimu.”

21.  “Wahai anakku! Sesungguhnya orang bertalam dua muka bukan seorang yang jujur di sisi Allah SWT.”

22.  “Wahai anakku! Jauhilah bersifat dusta, sebab berbohong itu mudah dilakukan, bagaikan memakan daging burung, padahal sedikit sahaja berdusta itu telah memberikan akibat yang berbahaya.”

23. “Wahai anakku! Sesiapa yang berbohong hilanglah air mukanya dan sesiapa yang buruk akhlaknya banyaklah dukacitanya.”

24. “Wahai anakku! Bersabarlah di atas apa yang menimpa dirimu kerana yang demikian itu menuntut kepastian kukuh daripadamu dalam setiap kejadian dan urusan.”

25.  “Wahai anakku! Apabila engkau mempunyai dua pilihan di antara takziah orang mati atau hadir majlis perkahwinan, pilihlah untuk menziarahi orang mati, sebab ianya akan mengingatkanmu kepada kampung akhirat sedangkan menghadiri pesta perkahwinan hanya mengingatkan dirimu kepada kesenangan duniawi sahaja.”

26. “Wahai anakku! Janganlah engkau makan sampai kenyang yang berlebihan, kerana sesungguhnya makan yang terlalu kenyang itu adalah lebih baiknya bila makanan itu diberikan kepada  anjing sahaja.”

27.  “Wahai anakku! Janganlah engkau terus menelan sahaja kerana manisnya barang dan janganlah terus memuntahkan saja pahitnya sesuatu barang itu, kerana manis belum tentu menimbulkan kesegaran dan pahit itu belum tentu menimbulkan kesengsaraan.”

28. “Wahai anakku! Aku pernah makan makanan yang baik dan memeluk yang terbaik tetapi aku tidak pernah melihat sesuatu yang lebih lazat daripada kesihatan.”

29. “Wahai anakku! Seandainya perut dipenuhi makanan, akan tidurlah akal fikiran, tergendala segala hikmah dan lumpuhlah anggota badan untuk beribadat.”

30. “Wahai anakku! Apabila perutmu telah penuh sesak dengan makanan, maka akan tidurlah fikiranmu, menjadi lemah hikmahmu dan berhentilah (malas) seluruh anggota tubuhmu daripada beribadat kepada Allah SWT dan hilanglah kebersihan hati (jiwa) dan kehalusan pengertian, yang dengan sebab keduanyalah dapat diperoleh lazatnya munajat dan berkesannya zikir pada jiwa.”

31.  “Wahai anakku! Makanlah makananmu bersama sama dengan orang orang yang takwa danmusyawarahlah urusanmu dengan para alim ulamak dengan cara meminta nasihat dari mereka.”

32. “Wahai anakku! Jangan engkau berlaku derhaka terhadap ibu dan ayahmu dengan apa jua sekalipun, melainkan apabila mereka menyuruhmu derhaka kepada Yang Maha Berkuasa.”

33. “Wahai anakku! Allah mewasiatkan dirimu; berbuat baiklah dengan ibu dan ayahmu. Justeru, jangan engkau mengherdik mereka dengan perkataan mahupun perbuatan dibenci.”

34. “Wahai anakku! Seandainya ibubapamu marah kepadamu kerana kesilapan yang kamu lakukan, maka marahnya ibubapamu adalah bagaikan baja bagi tanam-tanaman.”

35. “Wahai anakku! Orang yang merasa dirinya hina dan rendah diri dalam beribadat dan taat kepada Allah SWT, maka dia tawadduk kepada Allah SWT, dia akan lebih dekat kepada Allah SWT dan selalu berusaha menghindarkan maksiat kepada Allah SWT.”

36. “Wahai anakku! Seorang pendusta akan lekas hilang air mukanya kerana tidak dipercayai orang dan seorang yang telah rosak akhlaknya akan sentiasa banyak mengelamunkan hal-hal yang tidak benar.”

37.  “Wahai anakku! Andainya ada sebutir biji sawi terpendam di dalam batu, pasti ketahuan jua oleh Tuhanmu Yang Maha Melihat, Allah Amat Mengetahui segala sesuatu, zahir mahupun batin atau apa yang engkau sembunyikan di dalam dadamu.”

38. “Wahai anakku! Ketahuilah, memindahkan batu besar dari tempatnya semula itu lebih mudah daripada memberi pengertian kepada orang yang tidak mahu mengerti.”

39. “Wahai anakku! Engkau telah merasakan betapa beratnya mengangkat batu besar dan besi yang amat berat, tetapi akan lebih lagi daripada semua itu adalah bilamana engkau mempunyai jiran yang jahat.”

40. “Wahai anakku! Aku pernah memindahkan batu-bata dan memikul besi, tetapi aku tidak pernah melihat sesuatu yang lebih berat daripada hutang.”

41.  “Wahai anakku! Jauhkan dirimu dari berhutang, kerana sesungguhnya berhutang itu boleh menjadikan dirimu hina di waktu siang dan gelisah di waktu malam.”

42. “Wahai anakku! Apakah tidak engkau perhatikan, apa yang Allah bentangkan bagimu apa-apa yang ada di langit dan di bumi daripada kebaikan yang amat banyak?”

43. “Wahai anakku! Apa yang engkau menikmati di kehidupan ini lantaran kurniaan-Nya yang penuh keamanan, keimanan dan kebaikan yang melimpah ruah, di taman dunia yang subur mekar dengan bunga-bungaan serta tumbuhan yang berseri-seri.”

44. “Wahai anakku! Ambillah harta dunia sekadar keperluanmu sahaja dan nafkahkanlah yang selebihnya untuk bekalan akhiratmu.”

45. “Wahai anakku! Janganlah engkau condong kepada urusan dunia dan hatimu selalu disusahkan oleh dunia saja kerana engkau diciptakan Allah SWT bukanlah untuk dunia sahaja. Sesungguhnya tiada makhluk yang lebih hina daripada orang yang terpedaya dengan dunianya.”

46. “Wahai anakku! Jangan engkau buang dunia ini ke bakul sampah kerana nanti engkau akan menjadi pengemis yang membuat beban orang lain. Sebaliknya janganlah engkau peluk dunia ini serta meneguk habis airnya kerana sesungguhnya yang engkau makan dan pakai itu adalah tanah belaka.”

47.  “Wahai anakku! Tidak ada kebaikan bagimu untuk mempelajari apa yang belum kamu tahu sedangkan kamu belum beramal dengan apa yang kamu tahu.”

48. “Wahai anakku! Ingatlah dua perkara iaitu Allah SWT dan mati, lupakan dua perkara lain iaitu kebaikanmu terhadap hak dirimu dan kebaikanmu terhadap orang lain.”

49. “Wahai anakku! Kehinaan dalam melakukan ketaatan kepada Allah SWTlebih mendekatkan diri daripada mulia dengan maksiat (perkara menyebabkan dosa) kepada-Nya.Janganlah anakku undurkan melakukan taubat, sebab kematian datangnya tiba-tiba, sedang malaikat maut tidak memberitahukannya terlebih dulu.”

50. “Wahai anakku! Sesungguhnya lama bersendirian itu dapat memahami untuk berfikir dan lama berfikir itu adalah petunjuk jalan ke syurga.”

Begitulah 50 nasihat yang diberikan oleh Luqman Al Hakim kepada putera kesayangannya. Semoga ianya bermanfaat kepada diri kita juga.

By shafiqolbu

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