Dear Diary,
How are you dear? I hope you doing alright?
I know you really have a hard time to go through everything almost by yourself.
I know you are alone and lonely.
I know you have a hard time to sleep at night.
I know you skip meal almost every time.
I know you cry almost every night.
I know you try so hard to overcome it.
I know every single thing that happens to you.
I know how hurts you are right now.
Please be strong.
Please stop crying.
Please stop overthinking.
Please at least think about yourself.
Please, I'm begging you.
You know what...
You just destroying yourself.
You hurt yourself more than you imagine.
You make everything more complicated.
"I don't want you to think about depression, sadness, and disappointment.
It's could hurt your feeling and after that, you will be sad, depressed and emotional."
Depression caused from overthinking. You need to learn to accept your situation and move on. You will feel much happier and become wiser. 🌈⭐
See I told you...
He cares about you so much.
He even cuts all his plans just for you.
He willing to take you back home.
He did everything just for you.
and now you make him running away from you.
What have you done?!
Honestly and deeply I'm sorry.
I don't mean for you to get involved with my annoying and complicated life.
I just don't want to rely so much on you.
Because I know at the end of the day, it's me, myself that have to face it.
I don't want to lie but it's really hard Ya Allah being alone and by myself.
Whatever happens, I'm very thankful.
Alhamdulillah Allah sends you to me.
You might be young but sometimes you seem to be more mature than me.
I love to see you drive, you always look so smart and simple.
Everything about you was so comfortable.
You give me rainbow and stars into my life.
These signs make me smile and give me strength.
You show me how bright and beautiful life is...
You make me want to happily cook just for you.
And you always know what I like to eat. Thank you.
So please don't go even if I might be running away from you.
Because I'm shame on myself, you help me so much and I just make everything complicated on you.
I'm really sorry for everything.
Please don't go because I need you.
Sincerely.
Your crush.
P.S. Your wise word awake me, I will keep and remember it always.
